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Experimental uploads.

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Next week I shall be undertaking the beginning of the new project. Not quite on a ‘A Wing and a Prayer’ basis, but still the unknown presence of saying to myself ‘Do I have self ability to get this thing done?’

For months on end now, it has involved planning to create this intention of specific purpose. The VeeDub Bus becoming the focal point of the Cloud 9 songwriting, recording, playing and singing in the open air project.

The New Cloud 9 transfer sticker.

Involving a ‘My Dream Map’ consideration from the guidance book by John C. Maxwell it has been good to focus on what needs should be met. Ten different questions regarding stages to follow from:

#1 commitment to #10 reality.

When asked, with guidance considerations for answers ‘Is my dream really my dream?’ to ‘Does my dream benefit others?’ and all the in between questions….. you can focus on essential specifics.

You find yourself ruminating quite a lot. If you have a purpose in life? Then you have to find value and self promise in what you want to get out of life. As the lyrics in my YouTube video upload state:

‘I’m caught in a passage of time. I’m moving all the way to a better place, I can call mine’.

Writing this song was a period of life where I wanted to move from situations I called ‘Wind of Sorrows’. Negativity to Positivity. A lyric I wrote back in the 1970s. In the song where it says:

‘I call your name, down through the wind of sorrows. I call out loud, until I can’t face any tomorrow’s. But Oh no. Not me! Oh no can’t you see?’

This is actually myself talking to myself. Wagging a stern finger.

Then follows the positivity of :

‘I’m moving to the rhythm of life, caught in a passage of time. Moving all the way to a better place, etc.’

Life’s perfect place? Ultimately?

‘I’ll call it Home’.

Home can be anywhere that matters personally and where your soul feels both alive and calm. Of course, you here (my WP friends) know that Billie Cloud 9 is considered ‘The Green Sanctuary’ in life. And the project, ‘Summers on Cloud 9 ‘ is in order to develop the Nirvana vibe and a synergy for future holistic therapy.

Basically it is vital to find something to do that brings an air of :

And so the story has developed. Over months on months of self considerations regarding the monetary situation and expensive outlay, time commitment, self skills base, possibility of need to involve others, the planning involved, tenacity to commit wholeheartedly, self confidence and the strength to overcome obstacles…..it has involved much self analysis. And at an older age? Whether the strength to get there is still inherent.

Next step? Out there on Monday to some well chosen local spot and get the thinking cap on. Initially? The simplicity of an acoustic guitar, the iPad, the decent MV88 Shure microphone for the iPad and a mind full of wishful thinking.

Here below? Experimental uploads onto YouTube have reached 10 video songs now. Nothing out there in the open air and in the VeeDub Bus as yet. But the intentions at present is simply to get a feel of how this YouTube system works. Already, I find no way of finding how to insert a ‘Subscribe’ button. Such a technophobe. But, it will get there.

10 VIDEOS SO FAR…… link below:

https://youtube.com/@graysummers5999?si=Re8A_0XqcQsgPbHX

ALSO…..YOUTUBE VIDEO LINK OF ‘MOVING TO….’ BELOW.

Moving to the Rhythm of Life. The juxtaposition of strange downbeat imagery and upbeat song.

17 thoughts on “Experimental uploads.”

  1. Good luck for Monday, Gray. Its good to see the bus packed up and ready to go. I’m sure you’ll be excited to be getting on the road, but probably nervous too – that’s normal and to be expected. I think, once you get started, you’ll be in your element and having soo much fun.Enjoy 🙂

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    1. Thank you Brenda. The local spots known are going to have to considered properly. Because of trying to record some ideas, it would be nice to have the right balance. Usually, the VeeDub does attract people to come and chat. That’s really nice when sitting having or sharing a cup of tea and chilling. But difficult if recording.

      I can’t be massively isolated in as much as who knows who could come along. And not so busy that there are lots of people around. It’ll all be fine when I get to know what feels right.

      Cheers Brenda.

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      2. Very true Brenda. I remember arriving on the Dunes once near midnight. I wanted to take photographs of a full moon over the sea and dune scape. Then of course, the werewolf scenario hit my brain when taking my first picture. Stood with my camera on a tripod. I didn’t take a second one! Grabbed the whole tripod caboodle and got back to the car in a flash. It was in the days before the VeeDub ownership.

        It would be far more difficult putting away a bunch of musical gear. 😊

        Cheers Brenda.

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  2. dear Gray, I love how you turn reflection into music and hope. the way you describe moving toward a better place really reached me. it seems everything you do always carries a lot of heart.

    this coming week I have to go to a hospital for some tests. I’m a little frightened. I will be imagining you in Billie Cloud 9, with an acoustic guitar, the minimal recording gear, and, as you said, a mind full of wishful thinking, and it will help keep my soul lit. in a way, you’ll be right there with me. x

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    1. Thank you cookie. I hope your appointment turns out well. To have a fear factor in such situations is always the case. Fear of the unknown is the one that the mind builds up scenarios to most. So finding the happy places you know and focusing on them instead is a good way to get back into the light.

      Any comforting object too. A small figure of the medicine Buddha that fits in the ticket pocket of a waistcoat or jeans is always in my life. That and the full Medicine Buddha’s Mantra in the mind that can be whispered. A wrist bangle of counting mandala beads too is used for focusing on the bright positive areas of life. Do they work. Well yes. They are the tactile gift bringers of calm. They are simply a tactile presence of familiarity and trust. Built up over years. And as the saying goes ‘If it isn’t broke, don’t try to fix it’. You maybe need, or already own, a little amulet too.

      All the best cookie. And look after yourself. 💫✨

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    2. Hi cookie. Just to say that thoughts your way, regards your tests, are still very much here in my mind. Are you keeping that soul of yours well lit? Enough to outshine the stars and embarrass the heavens. 💫✨All the best cookie.

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      1. hi Gray. I’ve been trying to make sense of what’s been happening with me, and I’ve learned that some of it isn’t just emotional, it’s actually neurological, too. the depression, the addiction, everything together — it’s been affecting how my brain works. things like how I feel emotions, make choices, even how my mind handles stress or motivation.

        it’s strange and a little scary, because it reminds me that some of what I’m feeling isn’t just in my head in the emotional sense. it’s physical, it’s in my brain. and that can make things feel heavier or harder to manage. and my arms have been feeling really weak so I haven’t picked up a guitar or written anything. I don’t know when I will.

        I just wanted to tell you. I need to be honest about what’s going on. there are some things in the test results that are scary and worrying me, and I’m still taking them in. but being open about it helps me not feel so alone with it. and it means a lot to know you’re wondering about me and sending positive energy while I try to work through it.

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      2. Hi cookie. Thanks for replying. Such a worrying time for you. The awful physical presence of weakness you experience can certainly develop from long term emotional and addiction factors.

        I did write a long answer to this and posted it. But I then thought you had much to think on already and I didn’t want to confuse you with nurse speak. So I have copied the reply, but want to see how you are after you have thought about what you are processing. There is so much that is positive to look upon. Look after yourself and it is always good to exchange. So if you want anything explained, please keep in touch. I don’t know a vast amount regarding this. But can try to help you understand.

        All the best cookie. 💫✨

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    1. Thanks for the support Shep. It will be nice to see where this goes. I typed ‘camper van music studio’ into YouTube this morning and lots of people have massive RV set ups. I don’t want a ‘studio’ at all. Can do that bit on the tiny set up at home. But wanted ideas re: recording decently on the hoof.

      So, without The Den’s Mac M2 set up, it will all be experimentation at first. I haven’t used the small Tascam mixing desk at all yet. And that is easily transportable to record through. The size of a briefcase. Analogue old school too. So hopefully it’ll get to the ‘I can see clearly now, the rain has gone’ stage as ideas get more settled and familiar. Fun times? Fingers crossed🤞🏼

      All the best Shep. Cheery Cheers. 😊

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