Revisiting a song called ‘Trust Me’.

Walking down the stairs, after recording this sample/example of an old song below on the audio bar, I broke through a spider’s single silk thread. It felt gentle on my face as I passed through it. Why does the hand always tend to go straight to face to wipe away the silk. I have read in the past how spiders can ‘jump’ from wall to wall horizontally. They actually lower a thread and let wind or air draft float it around until it catches an opposite surface. They test the thread, and if secure, pull it taut and catch a ride. Strengthening the initial thread if needed to carry spidery body weight. There are many other spidery engineering feats to follow in order to create a full on cobweb. But, being of a Summers’ mindset it was an instant thought of ‘Is this a message!’ Am I a spider in how to perform acts and deeds! Truly? Haven’t got a clue.

I once read a book called ‘The Way of Wyrd’ by Brian Bates about Paganism in Anglo Saxon England. A Shaman sorcerer (Wulf), who used the power of runes to cross into other spiritual realms, took a Christian Monk (Wat Brand) on a journey to show how Paganism was as valuable as Christian philosophy. Runes were self carved, with intricate care, into Willow wood in order to keep them on one’s person for protection against unseen forces. Once accepted into that other spiritual realm you learnt of the complexities in the tapestries of life and how to navigate fate. It was a fascinating read. I carved my own sets of runes into clay, smooth pebble like slate found in river beds and also Willow wood too. The three Wyrd Sisters (Norns) were always in the background philosophy as Web of Life Weavers. Weavers of a Destiny and Time.

Trust Me. Acoustic trial vibe. Lyrics at bottom of blog.

Breaking through that morning spidery thread instantly reminded of that book. Also, a thought link to past beginnings of how my ceramic days were shaped in creating figures concerning travelling mystical and mythical characters. Rune carriers, musicians, Shamans, Faerie, etc. It was a very strange time in which to envelop myself into such thinking. I needed a new challenge after the musician days. Pottery was a key adventure in life. But of course, it had to be linked to different artistic inclusions in order to adopt themes of different nature. That being story telling, poetry and….music again. The music dream was dabbled into, linked to wanting some exhibitions to have self written music involvement, but it never found true dawn. On reflecting here, I met some very lovely mystical people around that time in my life. Very influential too.

Making coffee, it went through my mind about how we perceive our past experiences and if they are ever truly worth revisiting for inspirational value. My thoughts are that all experiences are of great value. The trick is to not value them above all else that exists in your life. Too many people I have spoken to over decades have harked back to the powerful entity of ‘Back When….” that they perceived to be superior. Myself included. Recent therapeutic reflections have brought about the re-balance as to realising who I truly am again. Someone with no ego. Well….maybe a ‘Quiet and gently reflective ego’. Selflessly detached and simply existing happily. Waiting to see what comes about next.

That spider’s thread? It gave me the thoughts as to what I had just done musically this morning. And a couple of times over the last few days. Old songs revisited alongside new ones. A thread back to past times that resulted in a finished in the ‘Year of 1980’ made cobweb song called ‘Trust Me’. It was performed by seven individual band members. Having ground down some coffee beans, I put on the kettle. Grabbed a cafetière and spooned in, as said, the wonderfully fresh and aromatic Musetti Paradiso coffee. Waiting for the coffee to brew for a while, I began to ruminate whether I, myself, subliminally broke that thread to past beginnings in order to create a new aromatic and adventurous solo sound. Yeh, I know! Weird hey. Or Wyrd?

And so. Think like a spider. How to strengthen a thread from the initial song in order to afford to carry enough of my weight in order to realise the success of a new adventure. Is it wise to leave the original song with its soul vibe and not move on to create a new song genre/sound? Leave it as it was and re-record it in exactly the same vibe. Ergo, a soul song. Or find out a new vibe that is the current me. Me, as a soon to be 70 year old, who calls himself ‘Frail Autumn’. Frail and in the Autumn of life. Basically, gentle it up a bit. Also. I’m not a soul singer. Even though I wrote this song….I never sang lead vocal on it. Team 23 as a band had a lead singer. In many of the songs, if not all of them (I can’t remember in truth), I sang backing vocals. Not backing vocals in a harmonies related style either. It seemed to be a case of call and response technique I believe.

Anyways, these words above are just a simple reflection brought about from the act of last night’s spidery activity.

Strange how the Mind flows isn’t it.

POSTSCRIPT: This afternoon, after writing the blog, I sang over the above audio. It was interesting that all those high notes were easily reached. So……it does matter what time of the day you choose to sing!

TRUST ME.

Pop ‘n’ pop is population

All around the World

I’m in need of information

My mind’s in a whirl

You see I gotta stop and pop a question

Ask all lovers and friends.

What am I to do?

Where am I to go?

What am I to say?

Well I really don’t know.

This is a burning in my heart.

Everyday now.

Intent on tearing us apart.

In every way now.

What am I going through?

All I’m asking you.

Is please

Trust me.

Standing on top of a mountain.

Shouting out to the World.

I’m in need of some loving.

I’m needing somebody to love.

To open up my eyes in the morning.

Feel somebody close.